You are a really lucky girl. You are getting some of the best advice on the boards. From some of the smartest posters. Every person here has given you really helpful info. Because they care. And they've learned from experience - some of it the hard way.
Now, only attempt to do it one day at a time. So make yourself promise not to contact him for the next 24 hours (tommorrow you make the same pact with yourself). And you must make yourself do something on your own. Even if it is just going to Starbucks to get a coffee and read a magazine - DO IT!
And the rest of the homework assignment is to come here and post to us HOW it is going/went. Because we care. And we know how hard it is. But the sooner you do it - the sooner the healing will start. Trust me on this one.
Hope your day is going well. Count your blessings. Many people care about you. I'm one of them,
