Poet

you have to detach from him

in your mind this has to be your journey now

asking him how he is is ridiculous
it changes at the drop of the hat and it shouldn't affect you anymore anyway

because he is good does not mean now you can be good
or because he is lousy now you have to make it better

going dark is removing yourself from the situation

Barbie is right

he could have told you that you would see him again for a million and four reasons

stop
step back