well...I just did what I had to do. AS the sole parent of two boys I NEEDed to get up every morning and get them dressed. I NEEDed to function. It is amazing what we can do when there are no other options
2..what mistakes did I make?
what mistakes didn't I make??? But I tried to tlearn the lesson in each of them...in others words...i tried not to repeat mistakes. I also didn't ask for everything I wanted. I tried to be nice and i shoudl have gone for gold
3...what was my best victory?
a life well lived. I refused to become bitter and I refused to continue to wallow. I realized how low my self-esteem was (painfully so) and worked hard to bring it up. I started small and let it build and build. I am living MY authentic life instead of the life someone else thought I should live
4...what was my worst loss?
The feeling of letting my children down. Their bio dad was incredibly abusive and this relationship was supposed to be better. not so much. i felt I had failed them
5...am I happier now?
there is no comparison. i did not realize happiness the way i feel it now existed. i was so beaten down that i forgot to remember to look upward. my life shines now. and i am a whole person. complete on my own. a better mother, friend and companion. my baboo is getting me at my best...a place i knew i was at before i met him and a place he continues to remind me to remain at. a true partner
