I regret running into him in a parking lot at the bank and freaking out for him not paying child support. I should have let my lawyer deal with it. I regret screaming at him in front of my kids about similar things. He liked to used child support as a control tactic. NOT OK! I also regret turning up the car radio when my daughter was in the car and so was ex and playing "You cheated on me and that's for that"... "gone is the house we made a home, gone is you never leave me alone" etc. I heard the song a week ago and felt bad. I regret trying to make him see the error of his ways. I regret begging and pleading him to come back.
I do not regret the fact that I NEVER called his apt (where his maggot lived with him). I do not regret NEVER telling his maggot off. I do not regret NEVER hitting him with a 2x4 like I wanted to. I do not regret not breaking into his car and "planting" a condom or sexy undies - so one of them would freak out on the other and break it off. I do not regret not writing the letter to her father or their pastor telling of their affair although I wanted to do this time and time again. I do NOT regret not calling, texting or emailing him every time I had the urge although that was VERY DIFFICULT> I can honestly say that I never texted him even once. I only emailed him twice (after he left a second time and emailed maggot one time when I first found out about her and asked her to leave my husband and children's father alone. I only called his work less than 5 times. His cel phone only in response to serious child related incidents (one child went into hospital, one child had got into trouble at school). THAT WAS IT! The rest of the communication was him phoning the kids and him asking them to put me on the phone and I kept those to a minimum.
