Honey, you do not owe him answers right now so GO DARK. Don't text. Don't phone. Don't leave notes. Let him flap in the breeze - this is not the worst thing for him right now.

Good Morning Barbie,

Thank you. Your words are always spot on. Here is the most important advice I hear that I personally have control of, at the moment. I actually have been doing pretty good as of late with this one -- that is, up until yesterday. But, I felt a desperate need to diffuse the situation there, and I think/hope I did, at least for a now.

I did end up breaking my own "darkness" last night and called him three times, but that was just to see how he was. I was really frightened and shaking all day yesterday. He said he planned to drive by this morning to see if the truck was there (yes, it was there) and I said I wanted to meet him at the gate and just hand him a breakfast and his paper, but he did not want me to. So, I didn't. I did ask him if I would ever see him again, and he said "Yes."

I know, I deserve a 2X4 for this groveling. Hit me now and get it over with. I've gone back to dark.

Strength, Honor and Wisdom,
poet