Journaling... When I got home yesterday, which was early,W was sitting at the table talking to the next door neighbor who is a sweet old lady who's been through some tough times herself. I say I was early because I adjusted my schedule to fit in some gym time. Yup I'm joining a gym and getting my flabby butt in shape. I didn't tell W that yet, I want her to see the changes first. Anyways when see remarked I was early I said I was trying something, she said what but I didn't say anything.
Later we were sitting on the couch and she was getting text after text after text. It was beginning to bother me because at one point she made an effort to cover the name but not what she was texting. Who ever it was she said she was going to the bar last night and would be there by 9.... I think it bothered me because A) I don't know who the text was from.... so the mind starts and the evil thoughts begin. B) Watching her face and her slight smile when she reads them. I tried to act as if but she saw it as having an attitude and even asked me to cheer up because I was getting quiet and giving one or two word answers. ( well I was kinda into the program I was watching) Might I add that earlier in the day she said she might have to work for GF tonight because GF dad is sick and she wanted to give her time off to be with her dad..... I validated her. Anyways, later when I went out to mow the lawn, W came tot he door freshly showered and in nicer clothes to tell me about her sister in such I acted as if and joked around a little. I finished mowing and she came out t6o say goodbye. Validate, act as if.... Funny thing...she said she had her phone (ya it never leaves your side so what I thought) Its almost like she wanted me to call her only on that but when it was time for night nights I called the bar and not her phone...she answered. I asked if she was working tonight and she said no but she is cheering up GF. Validate.... Later she texts me that she is going to MF house and hasn't been drinking so she's ok to drive...I texted back..ok She texted back that she got the newspaper for the boys because they needed it for school. (gee random text???) I watched some TV for a few hours and went to bed...Not going to wait up for her. I do know she came home around 1 which is early for her....
Validate. Today is another day....
Gman Me 40 W 30 kids B 11 B 10 D 8 Been here off and on since 06. PA Confirmed Dec 08.. With God, anything is possible. Do or do not there is no try. Sometimes you have to roll the hard six...
