I know I am not supposed to let H's every little move/non-move impact me, but it's been nearly 48 hours since we talked, and it's never gone this long. I really am confused. I am 100% positive that I have not done anything even remotely pressuring this week. This has been my best week ever in DB terms. It feels like he is just pulling farther away from me with each passing day, and that instead of building our friendship, which he always said he wanted, he is trying to erase our relationship. I know I shouldn't read so much into this, but the fact that he set a schedule for contact and ignored it, then the fact that he ignored my birthday email, and in fact just didn't reach out to me at all on his birthday seems incredibly weird. He had a session with Joanne 2 nights ago, and I would have thought if anything he would have been a bit nicer afterwards. He usually is. Now I feel like he's completely gone dark. he hasn't even gotten on IM.
OK that's it, just needed to vent as more than anything I want to call him and ask about his birthday. If we actually WERE building a friendship, I would be able to do this...I also REALLY want to let him know that I'm coming to Dublin. Ugh.
OK I need to be positive again. I can get through this day and this weekend WITHOUT contacting him. Sometimes maybe no news is good news? I need not to panic, and not to assume the worst...
Should I avoid sending any emails?
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
