Is he starting to come home?

[stella_k]

Hey, BH,

and thank you for posting on my thread. I was reading your thread yestrday but didn't have time to reply. I see so many similarities, it's frightening!

He is TERRIFIED of going back to that dark place (his words) and still feels that I am was a big factor in that depression. I

I could have written this, my H actually said it, word for word!

BTW, my H is taking sembalto (sp?) also! And during his depression he was cutting himself too, smashed a window and a large mirror with his fist. That's when he finally decided to go and see IC and got on meds.

As longer as I am hurting because the M might be ending, I might as well keep fighting until it is truly over. Then, at least, I can say that I did everything I could to save us.

I agree but I would like to add that we can keep fighting by making ourselves happier and therefore more attractive to them, so that the darkness they dread could not be traced to us and the way we are (I used to cry a lot, for instance. H says it terrifies him to see me crying).

Also - just my 2 cents - did you think about changing your screen name? You're such a strong person, if there wasn't a Braveheart here on boards I'd suggest that name, fits you better:)