I appreciate the encouragement JWS. I'll get those GPS coordinates to you pronto
This post was going in one direction and then new interaction forces a re-write.
I have a friend who pointed out to me that often times we end up with our noses pressed against the painting, thinking we can see the whole picture. He also basically said if you're too close to the situation, make no decisions.
So, I'm trying to take a more logical and less emotional approach to things and analyze the situation listing things like known facts, assumptions, goals, decisions, predicted consequences, etc. I think this will help.
Back to the emotional roller coaster. In planning for our hiking expedition next week, I offered that we could spend the night in a motel close to the trailhead and that would save us time the next morning. She told me that she wasn't comfortable with staying in the motel together. Now, whether that is a result of the snooping last time she spent the night here, or because she wants to head off any expectations of intimacy with me, I don't know. Either way, I see no benefit in pushing things in that direction.
Now, then I stopped by her work to pick up a check and she told me I looked really tired. Well, I didn't get much sleep last night, but, I got plenty today. No, my eyes look that way from the crying sweetheart We then discussed whether she was picking the kids up in the morning and she was complaining about how she isn't getting any sleep and said that she leaves and tries to go right home and unwind and go to sleep, but, that she's only getting like 6 hours of sleep. My poor little baby. Maybe instead of going over to your boytoy's house after work, you should go to the house you pay money for and go to sleep.
I cannot stand the lying right to my face.
I'm getting less enamored with her right now. As my emotions subside, I'm less sure that I want her still. Yes, I know, that's yet another change in direction, thus, I'm wisely following Lola and my friend's advice to not be hasty.
We then discussed whether she was picking the kids up in the morning and she was complaining about how she isn't getting any sleep and said that she leaves and tries to go right home and unwind and go to sleep, but, that she's only getting like 6 hours of sleep. My poor little baby. Maybe instead of going over to your boytoy's house after work, you should go to the house you pay money for and go to sleep.
