For the Guy with Kids and a WW 11

[hopeful4her]

Thanks for caring guys. Funny how we all say that a lot after we 'trip' out.

Especially me.

Once again, I allowed GBG to determine my feelings.

If ya'll have noticed, I was purposely calling her my wife again. Helping to keep my eye on the end result. Think I'll be going back to GBG to help me keep her distanced.

I didn't do anything dumb. Didn't call anyone. Didn't have lunch with anyone. No one called me today.

Or emailed.

I did have to go on an appointment with Y yesterday and then we did have lunch together. For the second time in a row, we both wanted the same thing. Talked about our crazy weekend. Hers was WAY more crazier.

Today was another crazy day at work. Issues abound. Left work to go to a meeting at 2 and stayed until 5:30. Some people I've known for some time, ex managers, sales coaches, my district manager and such, asking how I'm doing. I know they know. I tell them I'm great.

Didn't feel much like keeping up with the board after my post. I was too damn busy anyway. Good thing.

Picked up another video before going home. The second Harold and Kumar. Stupid but funnier than the first. Watched a little football before the movie. Some dinner. Not much. Just took things easy. D11 called me pretty late and we had a fun talk about her day. We laughed a lot.

After my post this morning, I sent GBG another email. I had to ask her about the girls attending my cousin's daughter's quincanera. A party that 15 year old latina's have in the Hispanic community. Like a coming out party(not that kind of coming out). I put that my mother wanted the girls to attend for a while and that I would get a more specific time if she wanted.

"And if you could PLEASE respond and let me know" is what I ended with.

Still, no response. Oh well. Must be rough being a biatch all the time. That's her. Jeckyll and Hyde. Nice Christian email to me on Friday and totally ignoring me on Tuesday and today.

Not my problem.

I keep saying that I'm not going to allow her to affect how I feel, but it happens. I've cooled down, but was I pissed or what? I'm just going to worry about myself.

Thats all I can do. Only care about myself and my girlies and enjoy what life has to offer me. MAKE my own happiness. I came across a saying today. I'm unsure of who the author is:

"I would rather wear out than rust out."

And I'll keep praying.

And yes, I do feel a little like toast, but that is my fault. Still working on it.