I just read your post and you are normal, everything you are feeling is normal, confusion, how do you act, yes I want to be with him no I don't want to be with him.
I was lucky to find this site, the people here have helped me more than I could have expected. There are so many people here and more and more show up everyday
Remember, you are normal, your feelings are normal. Also remember you can only control what you do and not what your H does or says. I know its hard on you, I wish there was some quick fix for everyone here, but there isn't
I hope you find what you are looking for, I hope that if you want to save your M, your H is open to reconciliation. I hope everything works out for you, but be prepared becasue its a painful journey.
Best wishes and I'll check back in on you
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
