I appreciate you guys being there and will probably need alot of help going forward.....I am afraid however that there is not much to discuss anymore. I have reached a point where I am even questioning why I did not leave that infamous night when she returned from God knows where. I put up with alot in the last year or so. I put up with more than I could have ever imagined. That is how much I love(d) my wife. That is how much I LOVE my D7. However, like you, there comes a time when I have to face reality. I am not lily white but I think I deserve much more than what I have been receiving in the last two years. I humbly think that I have alot to offer. Hopefully, one day I will offer that to someone who will appreciate it and will reciprocate. What really gets me is that for eight years, my W was the most appreciative and giving person I have ever known (mind you I don't think too many people would have done the things I have done for her). The beauty of it is that all I had to do was be myself and it was wonderful. Something happened on the way to the forum....I won't go into my theories but suffice it to say that she does not share my morals and ideals anymore (maybe she never did). So chalk one up to we grew apart. Now it is up to me to continue growing and not get stuck in the past....it is very difficult but I will have to find the strength to do it....for me and D7. Unless W returns to where she used to be (and we all know that will not happen), she is not for me...that is the honest truth. If there is a little advice that I would give any LBS who has the chance to try again like I did, make sure that your WAS is really back. Try to make sure you don't let the euphoria of the moment cloud your judgement. If I had to do it again, I would not have gone back so quickly when I saw an opening. I actually thought about it at the time but I was not strong enough to take the leverage I had and turn it into some concrete demands / assurances. I guess it's the Mr. nice guy syndrome that continues to haunt me.
