I finally figured me out. Maybe or not

[JWS]

Dan,
I love that you brought up the code of conduct because in a lot of way what you are going through is similar to what it was written for. your world is as foreign to you as if you have been captured by some unknown enemy. I can tell you for sure that every single person has their breaking point trust me I know, during my Level 3 Code of Conduct training they sure helped me know when I would break (literally) the absolutely most important aspect of that is that we will all break under strain but its how you pick your self up, and move on, redoubling your efforts to resist and back track from any wrongs you made when you slipped.

Dude I think that you are doing a fantastic job at the most challenging thing you will ever face in your life. no body knows the right thing to do so there for no one can judge what you are doing but you. Just keep doing what you can, and asking for help when, you feel you can't.

for me article 6 is the motivation article that keeps you going and connects everything.

I will never forget that I am an American, fighting for freedom, responsible for my actions, and dedicated to the principles which made my country free. I will trust in my God and in the United States of America.

may be cheese but here is some motivation for you:

I will never forget that I am an devoted Husband, fighting for my Marriage, responsible for my actions, and dedicated to the principles which made my Marriage Strong. I will trust in my God and have hope and faith in my Wife.