I remember early on in this sitch, x had said that love and hate were very similar. I had no concept of what the he!! he was talking about. Maybe this is it...?

Doesn't matter. I don't want him as he is. Emotionally stunted. Just going, with little or no introspection or thought to consequences.

Had a good day at work and later with my kids. I am really enjoying having a student teacher with me this year. I had one last year, but really leaned too heavily on that girl--she kept me afloat, and I assisted her, to a large extent. She was awesome and rose to the occasion; I'm just happy that she got a job this year. I can't believe how lucky I got to have someone so advanced.

This year, my student teacher actually needs the direction, and I am getting a lot by being there for her. It always makes your practice tighter, when you are instructing others on how things should be done. I've gone back to basics and written lesson plans again with her, developed long-term planning, showed her how to do an order (and didn't procrastinate in getting it done this year!), had her observe and offer modifications to lessons, etc.

The kids are balking a bit at the new routine, but I know that it is going to make the household run smoother, and with less stress and arguments. Why does it seem that they both got to the "But, WHY?" stage at the same time? And of course, I made the mistake for too long in trying to explain. Now, I am using the dreaded words of my mother: BECAUSE I SAID SO!

Things were too packed to go out to dinner last night with CR. So, I emailed him and he responded that we will get together again really soon. He is set to call me tonight, which will be nice. We have to figure something out, since our kids are on opposite weekends.

Early to bed again tonight after some laundry, then its FRIDAY \:\) My college friend is coming up for an overnight on the way to a baptism, then a quiet weekend with lesson plans and house blessing (cleaning). I'm haulin' tools to one spot for easy pick-up!