Treese, You are doing a great job of taking care of your children and yourself. It's very hard not to focus on what this week has brought into focus. How long will it be before he knows the results?
I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. The waiting is the hardest when it comes to trying to find out the results on anything, but something like this feels like it takes foreover.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.