If you're truly done with the marriage -- then you should be able to deal with seeing your H.
Since as you just wrote -- you no longer want your marriage restored and are no longer living in hope and faith that he will somehow, some way, someday wake up and realize all he is losing.
But IMO from many other things you've written...I do not believe at all that you're done.
I do think that you VERY much still harbor a desire for your marriage to be restored.
And that is why you're still in so much turmoil around your H and with the whole situation.
People who have truly moved on and are done -- are indifferent. You are NOT indifferent!
I think you're in denial about how much you still want your marriage restored -- and thus it truly would serve you to continue DBing. You have nothing to lose and so much potentially to gain.
