Looking for some more patience!

[kissak]

oh, I do believe it is pressure from the OW...Im sure she rolls her eyes if I text him about anything. She once told him that she thought I found stuff to text him about. Not true. If it comes to mind that I want to tell or ask something, I usually do. He even said himself that he didnt mind at all if I texted him....just to not do it around her.

I think it hit a nerve with him today.

I havent texted him today except to answer a few questions.

3 times already he has texted "u not talking to me now"

Each time I was short.....I said busy, eating lunch, and cleaning up. He has even called me 3 times as well. I tried not to get to talkative with him. I really dont know why he called me, I think he just hates it if I have control.

He did just call this last time and boy was he down....he called to tell me that the bank had called him about the payoff on my truck and also that he was late on his cc payment....I told him I would call and pay it off today...and it was over $100 less that what he had told me!! I had to let him know! He isnt very happy about it...well he is for me, but not for him!

I still wonder if he has found the happiness he was looking for?? It has been one thing after the other for him since all this began....he has lost his family, house, girlfriend (more than once), roommate, he is in debt up to his eyeballs, no money, lost his good name, his respect, had to quit the EMS position he loved soo much, and is in therapy and on meds.

ME? Im good, no boyfriend/no problems, car paid for, childsupport, kids, home, job, family and I still have my respect and good name. And sooo much more. Closer to God.

I guess it is all part of the journey.