I finally figured me out. Maybe or not

[HopefultotheEnd]

Dan I understand the need to snoop. I'm not perfect either I have too much access to too many things. But there was a time where I found too much of my energy being consumed by tracking what amounted to petty things. Sure I eventually found some stuff but at what cost to myself. That and the info didn't help. if anything it altered my actions to be less DB aligned. We cannot control our W's, only ourselves.

I'm weak. I'm too weak to quit and too weak to go on. I feel like the good well-behaved child who never caused any problems for his parents who once away at college flips a 180 and goes crazy. I want to go crazy. I want to cast off the shackles of the expectations and responsibilities and I want to live. I want to experience love and joy and happiness instead of duty responsibility and pain.

I feel as if you are speaking from my own heart a few months ago. I felt a huge need to get myself back out on the market. I've had the same attention from the ladies and it feels great. Thankfully, I realized that not only am I not ready for that yet but that I was discovering a whole new part of myself that was free of Dependence from or to another person. I am now learning that I can have that really fun life with my kids, friends, myself and I don't have to "go crazy" to find the fun that I'm looking for.

I'm not the type to preach to you, I just want you to take your time and think. Grant yourself the ability to make the best descisions possible. Who know's what the future will bring...