New month, new strategy

[pisces9]

sort of. he has brought up why he thought "the grass was greener".

one thing was my ability to be athletic. i can do a lot of stuff..but not for long endurance. he is a super athlete and got it in his mind that he wished i could do more. he now realizes thats not what he wants. he wouldnt want that in me anyway.

he also said he had a lot of growing up to do with his social life. reduce a lot of drinking. he was partying way too much and he said he wasnt treating me well.

lets just say i was shocked for him to say these things. and he keeps saying them. sort of his way of apologizing.

he has never really said why he left- and Jody has said you dont ever have to know why. its not important.

yesterday my H and i were talking and he said so are we going to make it. i just smiled and he said whats that smile for. i said yes- im putting all my eggs in this basket. he said thats a lot for one basket- i said yep- but they are all in. now you have to put all your eggs in...leave noting out.

so - we have really just moved forward in a way. sometimes i want to now why- but i think that he may not really know. i think we still have along journey. he haas a lot of self realizations to figure out (as we all do)...

i think he wants to see a therapist together- and maybe the depression issue will be brought up. but not from me. bc he was very depressed for a long time...

unless he has addressed the subjects like his drinking i dont think i would have been as quick to rekindle this...but he saw it very fast ...which is a huge part of depression (drinking)...so we shall see!

hope that helps! thats why i say your H is very sensitive right now w his depression- it will suck you dry if you allow it to. he needs to just be on his own for a while. but he is seeking help which is GREAT!

i know how hard this is..... hugs!