R2C - have been following your thread recently. While it is sad that things have gotten to the point they are, I am very inspired by your approach, your attitude and all round dedication to the cause. I know also that it can be really hard to avoid "tasting the apple." After all you have been without love and loving for a long time, not to mention th urges a man has. I am looking at this like a long Lenten fast where staying off tempations is what I need to do for a long time until I am ready.
