I'm wondering. Do you want to find out she is with someone else for definite so it'll give you the green light to go off and get some experiences with other people. Are you feeling you need this? Do you feel like finding out she has been unfaithful will make it ok for you to that? Almost like she is giving you the excuse you need.
I'm not judging you at all, if you choose to go off with other women that is your choice. It isn't as though we, as LAS, become nuns or monks or suddenly have no desires of our own. I'm not asking you to divulge if you don't want to here, I know what I am asking you is quite personal. I just want you to question yourself, or your motives.
Why do you need solid proof of adultery? What will this mean to you? And what will your actions be if you find this proof?
