Homeward Bound!

[pisces9]

so h ended up inviting me to dinner with them. it was nice....first time with people since we are back "together"... so it went well and my H was actually very relaxed.

im pretty emotional right now. my bro is so mean and then he feels guilty and is nice..then mean. i want him to be my bro and just fun all the time...but he isnt and so i have to see that. it is kinda painful to realize this.

ugh. i just want out of this sitch.

im overwhelmed....then my mom said it will be sad to see me leave the company...she is sweet then unpredictable too.

seriously- im not being a victim. they are very hard to deal with.

it is so enmeshed that i really cant stay. i am sick to my stomach right now. i havent felt this horrible for a long time.

my h and i want to move a couple hours away but we cant do that until his transfer list opens in april...so we are a little stuck until then...but he is coming up with ideas...we may rent for a while...then buy. or buy and he would commute and stay down here for a few days during his work week then commute back up there.

phew...i actually feel better just writing this out.