Stella, I'm so sorry it turned out this way, but you do sound good. You are going to make it.
I too hope the farewell parties aren't too difficult. Have you given thought to what to say when asked, "So what do you both plan on doing when you get back home?" It might be easier to have an answer planned instead of not knowing what to say right away. It might save you and H some awkwardness. I'm so sorry, I know this can't be easy.
Sending lots of hugs and best wishes your way.
Yoyo
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon