Well, I have my official start date in Switzerland....Monday, September 29th. Looks like I will be leaving the US on the 26th or 27th. Wow, I still can't believe I'm doing this. It's getting very real.
I'm hoping to really be able to find some clarity and do some soul searching while I'm away. This will give me a chance to completely remove myself from my old life.
Things with the new beau aren't going so good and once again, I have no idea why. I backed off to see how he would react...that didn't help. We are still chatting but it is totally different than it first was...and not in a good way. I decided I have 23 days left and I'm not going to sit back anymore. Life's too short to not be yourself and not say what you feel. I decided to take the bull by the horns and tell him that we need to talk. I really like this guy and I thought he really liked me and I'm confused and frustrated and dammit after everything we've shared, I think he can give me an hour of his time to sit down and discuss what's going on. I don't want to waste my time or his time on something that isn't real, and if that's the case I will accept this as another lesson learned....pack my bags...move to Switzerland and not turn back. I hope that's not the case and that he really does care for me, but the only way I'm going to find that out is by talking....not by walking around wondering what's going on in his head. What you see is what you get with me and he saw that right away because he was very impressed with my honesty because it's a hard quality to find these days...isn't that the truth.
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"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."
