God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

thank you Bill,

your post are such an inspiration to me. Thank you for sticking with me and taking your time to share your valuable advice.

I'm not sure that you believe that you can be happy on your own.

It's not so much that I don't believe it. It's that I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone. My mom and dad D when I was 13. My mom was very bitter, still is to this day. She has been alone all these years. That's not how I want to spend my days. And besides, when I said "I do" I really did mean forever...

But at some point I think you will realize that the good moments are facades right now.

I do realize this Bill, but it's all I have for today.

The problem is the pain they leave in their wake.

Amen

You'll get tired of crying at some point.

You'll get tired of the aching inside.

Already there...

And when you do, you will decide that you are ready to begin living YOUR life, and you will leave your husband to his.

Honestly...I don't know if I can.

Or if you do, you choose to roll in his toxicity out of fear of losing him for good.

I do...and your right.

When will it be time for HIM to fear losing YOU?

I don't know if he ever would.