letting go

[artteach]

Tonight he called sounded very distant (he is working overnight) I asked him what can I do to make this transition of the new job, being away, blah blah blah better for him because I know I have been annoying these past few days. His response is we will talk face to face this weekend. That scares the crap out of me. I said are you leaving me and he said "are you crazy I love you" not exactly a no, I feel like I am losing my mind not sure if I am reading to much into everything or what. He has been angry on the phone the past few days, I just don't know. I am preparing myself for the worst that he is still in love with her and wants to give it a try with her, that she came to visit this past week and he kept it from me, my heart wants it to be that he is just stressed over money, new job, and all of that, but I just don't know.