Thanks so much for sharing. It does help and truly I go back and forth too. I miss him terribly, and then at times I question why would I even want to reconcile as he's just so darn mean. It's the most insane thing ever. He would have before called someone like him a nut or loser and even more he would have called the OW and loser but now this is his life. He tells my daughter, 17yr old, that he thinks about me every day. What is that? Then when I spoke to him 3 weeks ago he says to me I thought about you all and I miss you, how are you? What?!?!?!? Does it seem like they will do this to keep you kinda with false hope so they can have their cake and eat it too? I have been trying to keep living. ITs very hard, consumes my thoughts and little movies in my head on how happy they are. I started salsa lessons a few months ago and its helpful. I try and exercise or go for walks. It's just all a shock. I thought we were happy. Even my 17 year old daughter says mom we had a fairytale life. You and dad were so happy. Blah, Blah, Blah anyways I'm really happy I joined this forum. I feel like I'm among friends.
Me-38 H-38 Married 18years Daughter-17 & Son-9 Discovery of EA/PA 4/23/08 Left home 5/08/08 Moved in with OW 08/01/08
The only rock I know that stays steady, the only institution I know that works is the family. -- Lee Iacocca