I feel glad in a way that you and H had that conversation and felt a release of the tension. I see that as a great sign- the first step in moving towards a relaxed frienship. FWIW, I still think your H is confused.
On the other hand, I think you're doing the right thing by moving on and focussing on you, whilst keeping a little sliver of hope going. You sound strong as usual.
So glad your trip went well. I hope the farewell parties aren't too difficult, and that the trip back home goes well too!
