H had 3 year affair and I never knew! (2)

[happycamper]

Posting here as well as my usual thread because maybe some of you guys who have been cheated on have a special understanding.

Feel wretched. I can't bear to hear anything about H's new R. Don't want to see his (their!) new flat, don't want to hear her name, don't want to hear about the things they are planning. H seems to tell me things with no real understading that it will actually hurt me.

I've never been in this place before, where I can't handle H's behaviour. I feel weak and pathetic. I loved him for so long and was so faithful to him, how could he do it to me?

Well, I know how really - he's not a well man. I feel completely undone.