Feel horrible at the moment. His new R seems to have hit me extremely hard. He also seems to have no understanding of how much it hurts me (meant to mention that to you Grant!). Like asking if I could run his house payment through my account. And today, he just casually mentions that he is going away for a long weekend at New Year, is that ok?

What's it got to do with me? He doesn't have to get my permission, but the fact that he is asking me is letting me know that he is taking her away for a romantic New Year's Eve. He's not a mean person, I don't think he's giving me all the details to spite me; when I protested at the house-payment issue at the weekend, he was very apologetic.

He just doesn't seem to get it!

Maybe he's so used to doing these things without me knowing and without apologising that he forgets that I know now and it hurts!!

I can't bear to talk about her. I don't want him to mention her to me, I don't want to hear about his R with her, I don't want to hear him speak her name. I feel childish and pathetic.

I never thought I would say it but I never want to see him again.

Last edited by happycamper; 09/03/08 07:43 PM.
Me:36 M:16 D final: 08/09
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Bomb 3xPA 200 sexual encounters 15/06/08