Yes, our 1st day was the 13th, so I'm well into it now. I'm not quite right as of yet and I'm hoping to be "normal" soon, but the transition back is tough on me.
I'm pretty sure you're right as this is why I'm sad. I'm grieving the losses I've suffered, but I also just don't want to be divorced. I'm also a bit surprised that my W hasn't been willing to see any of the growth and progress I've made, but on the other hand it isn't suprising at all.
For her to see my growth, she would be forced to look at her lack of growth. If she acknowledges I'm addressing my issues, she'd be forced to address her issues. If she discovers I'm not the complete problem, she'd have to look at herself for the reason she's not happy.
Thus, I am very sad right now as I feel that this is going to end w/ the D and W not doing anything to change. I know that I'll be better off w/out her and w/ someone who loves me for me, but it still doesn't make it any easier. It still doesn't make me not want to be w/ her. I still want my family. I still want us back forever.
I'm hoping I can get to a place like my friends Kalni and Kerry here where I'm looking forward to the D rather than feeling down b/c its coming up soon.
Thanks again for checking in and I hope your transition back is a smooth one.
