He and I got into it about her repeatedly through Feb. and March. Him ignoring the pain of our oldest over his affair was what made me finally ask him to leave. I have not discussed her with him, outside of counseling, since May, when he opted to ignore the kids for an entire week.
He leaves in less than a week. Rocking the boat and forcing a confrontation now, after him having just spent a week with her with no pressure or stress--at least as far as I know-- serves me no good. He will leave her with many memories of positives from thsi entire week. We are taking the kids, together, to an amusement park on Saturday. I will continue to display the unconditional love I have for him and make hoem the most attractive option.
He is struggling today. He looked near tears out back a bit ago. He is laying down now. I sat outside, across the picnic table from him, with my eyes closed--enjoying the warmth of the sun on my face and praying the entire time that God would remove teh scales from his eyes, soften his heart, adn convict him of his choices. When I opened my eyes once and looked over at him, I could see him fighting tears. After 15 years, I know that face for sure.
I can do this, I HAVE to do this. God has given me way to many signs. made His promise clear.
Thank you all for everything you are doing to support me right now. The prayers are the most important, as you all know, but just knowing you have my back helps, too!!
SMW
hey that's all I wanted to know..
I was not advocating anything. I wondered where you where at.
