Lost3031 I thought I would return the favor and give you my thoughts on your sitch. As you know I am LBS.

“I need to think about in making my decision whether to be with H, OM, or myself”.

If I may suggest that you might want to consider staying away from both for a time. It will give an opportunity to clear your head. I did not read all of your sitch; I would ask myself some question. And be real honest with myself. Do I want to throw away the time I invested with my H and M? Is your investment in the M worth giving up for the OM?
You really need some time to work this out in your head. I know what its like to walk around like a Robot. I understand what you mean about friends. This something you need to discuss with your C and yourself. Go with your gut. You probably know all parties involved better than anyone. What makes you happy?