Michelle- I didn't ask my coach about mentioning competition. To be fair, it's not really competition, although maybe H doesn't see it that way. Do you think I shouldn't mention it?
Julia- I didn't specify any night for the prom. H just said he was busy for the next lot of weeknights. The weekend wasn't an option- aubergine time. I just told H I was going to go anyway, which is what Jody said to do any time I made a suggestion for an activity/outing.
Handsome- glad to hear it!
I'm feeling a bit down this afternoon. Lacking hope, I guess. This seems like it's taking so long and I'm so fed up of being second best behind that purple thing. Maybe H is really happy in his life and I'm a bit part to that. He's going away at the end of the month to Sicily (with family, he says). We talked about going to Sicily for our honeymoon. Seems like ages ago.
His life seems to be just fine and dandy- he's busy with his friends and new GF, going away, doing his hobbies- those days of him apologising and saying he'd fix things, and being unhappy seem eons ago (3 months?). Sometimes it seems as though I'm chasing a shadow. I wonder if he sees me as STBXW who's now his friend who he sees for lunch (and then mails me saying 'thankyou very much for lunch- it was nice to see you'. So formal), and if I've tricked myself into thinking he's confused.
