As hard as it is, you need to try to focus on yourself. Your H doesn't need or deserve all this attention. Do things that make you happy. Go out with friends, join a book club, treat yourself to a spa day, just do something different. Set goals for yourself.

I am so sorry this is happening to you. hugs.

kat

Me-53(and learning!)
S24, S21, D18, D17
Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory