"Technically speaking I'm not divorced yet and there is also a tiny part of me - the stupidest part of me - hoping... Nevermind \:\)"

(((((((Stella)))))))

You sound so good to me. You're really doing great. And this comment above? Please know that you are not alone in your thinking. It is the DB way. In God, all things are possible. Geeesh, I am the worst DBer in the world, and I still hold out hope. If you love your husband, go to Frank_D's thread and read a recent post from Amy to me....yes, it was sometime on yesterday.

Love you,
poet