I think I am heading to first

[yenko69]

Last night did not get much better. It did just give me more of a reason to let go. W did call me a couple times yesterday about various things. She was going to play softball for another team that was missing a girl and D11 was doing a fund raiser for school.

I worked over there for a few hours yesterday. W got home I was playing cards with D11. I told W that I would take D11 out to my parents while she was playing. Then finished up some things at the house that needed to be done. I really did not want to be around the W. It is somewhere between a growing resentment, pity and wondering why she is so blind to what is going on.

Before I left I said I would meet her at the ball field to take D11 with me. She said that she wanted to be honest and that OM was going to be with her. She did not want me to be mean or nasty about it. I told her then to drop D11 off at a friends garage where I was going to be at. I guess I could have been honest with my feelings and told her f@ck you. Did not seem real like the right thing to say.

I did have a good time hanging with my friends. One of them just got his 68 camaro running. Went with him for a test drive. Reminded me of youth, I do miss the sound and smell of an old car. I just have to get busy and get my chevelle done enough to drive it. We were drinking beer and talking and both thought I should just be done with W. I am starting to agree more and more.

I called W's cousin about fixing some brake lines on a car. I could not remember what pieces I needed. Along with everyone else they agree that she is making a huge mistake and will live to regret it. They don't want to have much to do with my W either at this point. Seems to be a pretty common theme among a lot of people.