God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

did I EVER say what I did was okay or justitfied??? Never! I know what I did was very wrong and I've admitted that and am taking responsibilty for it. A while back H said he was sorry that it happened. That it was his fault. I told him no, I am the one that committed the crime not him.

and your very wrong an2m. I have changed, in sooo many ways. I am a different, stronger person and everyone that knows me sees that but H.

And NEVER EVER have I blamed anyone for my faults! If anything I have taken way to much blame for things that I have had no control over or that were someone elses faults. I don't give myself enough credit for being a good person.

Bottom line here is I am FAR from perfect. I make mistakes every hour of every day. BUT I did not have an affair. I don't lie. I've always been committed and appreciated my M and my family. I don't blow money. I go to work every day and take care of my family. I am raising H's neice by myslef for god's sake. And after all that has happend in the last year and a half I am still committed to the man that I said I do to.