2 nights to go untill my sons birthday. My brother in law (not the one that i was friends with) is going to be there and is pissed at me over the letter (hippocryte, he's done some HURTFULL things in his time, probably help W strengthen her lack of self esteem), i've been told not to go near him. I'm still not sure what to do. I have the kids this weekend anyway, but i don't want anything to happen at the party, coz' he isn't the most calm guy, and if he drinks (hopefully I'll be gone by then, he wont control himself at all regardless of if I stay away from him or not.
Acting as if wont help with her family. they all have had there own problems. W's Father had an affair when she was little, W's mother never forgave him and keeps reminding every day. W's oldest brother killed himself over drugs. W's second oldest brother is an aggressive alcoholic, who can do no wrong in W's mothers eye's. Everyone is oppinionated and doesn't care what anyone else thinks, they are always right, each of them, and they will have conflict for weeks, or months on end over nothing.
Apparently my mother in law keeps trying to get W to reconsider leaving me (i don't classify us as separated anymore, maybe if W shows some interest), I don't know if she still is doing that, but it felt good. But it would be hurting my cause because she wont let up on it (don't need to be told this, she just wont) so in a way, i don't need to persue to push W away, her family will be doing that enough already.
There's a bit more history of what I have to overcome....... I know that it is all really complicated, he brother being at the party will make it 10 times worse, otherwise I would have been ok
2 nights to go, and I don't think I can pull out at this point, I need some strength now more than ever.
t7-years m3-years Me:22 W:27 Wifes kids (love them like my own) D-10 D-7 Our Kids S-3
