Thanks, ((((Poet, Jen)))))!

I will consider both possibilities, but somehow I'm more into Midlife Crisis.
Technically speaking I'm not divorced yet and there is also a tiny part of me - the stupidest part of me - hoping... Nevermind \:\)

It's 6 AM here, I still cannot sleep - jetlag? grieve? both?

I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders
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M 46
H 45
D 17
M/T 23
Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06
Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07
Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08