Rob, Wow, progress reports! I just started back today. School opened here 8/28 but I was away Thursday and Friday. I feel so bad for you, it is so painful to have your family torn apart. Some say divorce is like a death and there is a grieving process. Perhaps this is where your sadness comes from. I so hope you can start to heal after things are finalized. Your W doesn't seem to have faced this. Your W may be fooling herself and just might be the one to fall apart after the D.It is amazing , that with all the changes you have made and work you have done to fix what you felt you did wrong in the marriage that she has not even given you a chance. She should at one point during all this at least gone to a few months of marriage counseling. I think she will eventually regret this. You will know you did all you could to hold your family together. You will move on and find happiness allthough it may not seem like it now.