In the worst part of my MLC, yes, I thought I was "over" him and I was planning another life, Frank.
I envisioned that I could just take our kids and go live with someone else and all would be well. I introduced my children to the SOB that later stalked me and went to jail for it. I glossed over the rough spots I anticipated the kids would have but I truly believed that if I was happy my kids would be happier for it. THANK GOD I never actually got to the point that I made that stupid move, but that was what I was thought at one point. I was still blissfully unaware that the majority of my problems were caused by my own low self-esteem and a host of other issues that all came down to - SURPRISE! - ME. Yes, my husband brought his own dysfunctions into the marriage but I used his weaknesses to catapult myself into an ivory tower that I then sat upon in self-righteousness, judgement and self-delusion for quite a long time.
I don't like remembering that time or the things that I did during that almost 3 year period of my life but I am ALL about keepin' it real now so I will work on laying down the history again.
That said Frank, you really need to spend more time dealing with and caring for Frank and less time analyzing your wife.
That's the only thing that got my husband through it.
