things are really good....we looked at more houses in 2 different locations yesterday...i am just going with the flow...i think it is more a way for him to really feel like we can do anything...im just not reading into too much right now and having fun with it all...
although i am getting a bit anxious to change it all- i am very excited and i have wanted to do this for a long time...
last night after our day of looking at homes we made dinner here - it was so warm and beautiful outside- my H lit candles and we had such a nice dinner...then we talked about everything..not just R...
but he said- soooo- are we meant for eachother? i smiled and said a simple yes. what do you think? some how he turns it all into a joke and said how do we know if we are sexually compatible...ha ha ha.
so later that night - we you know what'ed- soooo nice. very connected...
im still just waiting for him to move home or say he wants to be with me forever and ever....not too far off i think...
one thing that did come up yesterday was he was sort of joking and said- what if we sold everything and moved to costa rica? i said ok...why not? we have one life to live- why wait for the future- we never know what will happen to us...he said...thats what is so great about you- you are open to anything...he also said its good and bad- meaning my excitement and spontaneity...i think it scares him bc i realize you can do anything and change your path - he is a little more rigid in that regard.
anyway- still truckin along- not taking things personally, loving him, having fun and not getting too serious. i havent cried nor do i want to. its all good. no drama. just letting him sow his oats.
he is going to visit his parents next week which is odd- never does that alone- i tin he is going to tell them we are getting back together- bc he is a little concerned with how they perceive him- another growth phase for him..and maybe he wants to talk about something im not even aware of....
who knows?!
things are very good- DB'ing works.....give it time...thats all its about. and love yourself.
xo xo B
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