Back at the apt.....feel like sh!t. Had a quick chat with W before leaving....couldn't help but bring up th OM thing. It went something like i know you, I can't believe that you are redy to give up 10 years of your life, hurt D7 ..... give up your dream home and everything we had ...... if there is nobody else. Her response....are you starting with that again? That was it. I have to admit that this is harder than I thought. I need to regroup and focus on me. After 1 yr. of DBing I need to take control of my life and not let life's waves take me all over. I guess I need to find another location.....I need to start a new thread in separation. I am through DBing though....at least I am through in the sense that I am no longer working for my marriage. I will start to gather information on lawyers and divorce proceedings. That is it for now. Hope i get some sleep tonight....it will not be easy. Thanks to all who have read my posts and have taken the time to encourage me and give their opinions. To those who took away some hope from my previous success allbeit short lived, I am sorry I was not a full fledged success story. My success barometer now will be how I handle myself around D7 and slowly getting my new life in motion.
