Sara, I have asked him on several occasions to just try it with me. Even said to him it was not about getting back together but helping to heal the hurt we had so that we could move on. He refuses. Does not have any desire to do anything that remotely looks the MC. In his head he feels he is done because he lost that loving feeling.
I am trying to be positive that there still is a little crack in the door. It is so wierd. He is talking to me the way we used to. It almost feels like the old times, even though I know its not. I am determined to stay strong and be the best me possible. Like I have said before, I was THE love of his life for so long, I think I can be again. I am just trying to focus on being the best and happiest me, and either he will want it or he wont. I need to back away from him though. I think that I need to keep showing him that I dont need him. He has seen it, but after him opening up to me today, I think he still needs to see it. Let it sink in that his hurtful words did not affect me, that I am still great because the world is a beautiful place.
My S is terrified of his teacher. She really is a mean witch and yells at the kids alot. I have talked to everyone under the sun concerning the difficulty that my S is going through, and it seems to be falling on deaf ears. I BEGGED the teacher to just be a bit gentler with him, maybe give him encouraging words and she does not. I am going to see the principal again tomorrow to talk to her about it again. Unfortunately, he is just going to have to go through this and eventually he will get stronger. Just hope he isnt too scarred and jaded by then. Thanks for sharing you story as well.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
