The one change I would need to see is the one where she chooses to be like AmyC in that she actually decides that she WANTS me more than anyone else and fights to come back. Not like last time where I fought for her and just 'let her' come back
Apparently I am not expressing myself well.
The change that you speak of only comes with ONE choice attached to it and that is the choice whether or not to turn around and suck up your pride, admit the mistakes and own their results and still stand there when those consequences REALLY start to rain down on your head and you don't feel like you're worth a crap because of all that you have caused.
THAT is the only choice. THAT will be the only decision to be made. Whether or not to face the music.
The rest of it, at least for me, was not a choice. It was an natural evolution brought about by many things, not the least of which was me finally asking God what HE wanted instead of me bending His Word to fit MY will.
I'd love to be able to pull this stuff off of my old threads but they are gone...
I will try to post a timeline tonight but I don't think it's going to be the quick story some people might expect it to be.
I mean, just to get all the way outside the "tunnel" that we call MLC took almost 6 months from the very first night I cried because I missed my husband....
