Thanks you guys. It was a rough night until about 11:00 when I got to speak to my H for about twenty minutes. I offered to help him out with a paper for school and for the first time in a while, he accepted! Offered to pay me for it, lol, DAM doesn't he realize that I am doing it because I care???
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I was listening to Chumbawamba this morning because of your post. I think, by the sounds of it, things are going well. He is trusting you again and valuing your input - that is great!
I think the next thread is going to be a line from Chumbawumba!!! I love that song, when it was on the radio, my XSIL had just had my twin neices and they were very ill. We listened to that song so she would not give up hope. Ten years later, they are happy, healthy and you would never know they were born five weeks early w/ meningitis...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
So now I am a little mad at BFF Rose, and I am not sure how to handle it.
Obviously, right now, I have "abandonment" issues. So I get email and text from her this morning stating that it was a flashback to another friend of hers who really did a number on her. I get that everyone has their pet peeves, but I texted AND left her a message apologizing to her on SATURDAY. SATURDAY, and nothing, not okay but I'm still mad, not FU, nada. Today I get an email stating that a persons word is trust, and she trusts it won't happen again. In the meantime, she has no idea that this was really hard. I knew I was insensitive to her invitation, but I also know that life happens and somtimes we may have the best of intentions, and it just doesn't work out that way.
Just venting. I told BFF that I could not talk about this right now because I did not want to cry again.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Sorry about the troubles with your BF, but on the positive side, sounds like you are making progress with your H. You are going to work on a paper for him. That's actually really nice :). A 20 minute conversation isn't bad either! What did you talk about?
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
Actually I sent him a text saying I hoped I wasn't waking him, but could I borrow $10 til I got paid. He said yes, and he was still awake doing work. I said thanks, and asked him if he actually got the day off on Monday. He called me, and vented about work for about twenty minutes, and that he was supposed to have the day off because he has a HUGE paper due for school, and has not been able to even start it. I offered to help, and he said really? Could you do that? I said sure. I vented a little about my old job, and told him I was really glad I was here at the new one because they already fired another assistant, and the other attorney had been through 9 in 8 mos, and I had lasted the longest by working for her for 3 mos. It was just a good convo, he was mad about work, but felt the need to just let loose and talk (and say f*ck every other word, so I know he really needed to vent). I felt glad that he chose to talk to me about it.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Hey Amy! I am okay, just I don't know. I am really ticked at BFF, and I can't explain it. The whole thing just makes me mad, and I know I had fault in it. I am not sure why I am really upset.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Hmm, perhaps because you know you had fault and admitted it but she is still holding on to her resentment? I can guess you feel a bit frustrated and impatient with her right now.
(((Lola)))
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
