Two affairs in 5 months....

[marisol35]

Thank you Karen for your words of support and ideas.

Since I posted last my daughter expressed an interest in learning to play piano so I have signed her up for some lessons.

I have also joined a support group in my area for people who are in similar situations as mine or who are going through a divorce. I believe this will help me tremendously to get through these next few months.

I also have always had a passion for dancing so I have looked into some local dance schools and plan to start taking classes. I have went to school for makeup artistry so I am working with photographers on that as well trying to build my business. I am mainly interested in doing weddings.

I keep telling myself the same thing you said about the 21 yr old OW. That its only a matter of when it will end and not if it will. They already started the relationship with lies and she knows about the 1st affair because both these women work at the same company he does. The 1st OW was fired. I know the 21 OW will be fired soon as well once the owner finds out what is going on. It won't be long before it spreads. The owner does not put up with this type of behavior and I don't know if my H will have a job after all of this either.

The hardest part for me is seeing him and knowing he is having this relationship with someone when we are still M. That is the hardest part to cope with. To know he goes to the movies with her or to dinner or she stays the night at his house or they go shopping together and laugh like everything is great. While I'm here dying on the inside with all of these feelings, thoughts, uncertainties, etc.... He lives while I'm at a standstill. Then to have no remorse or sympathy. I just keep asking myself do I wait, do I want to wait, what will happen if I do, do I just move on, is it worth it, I still love him so much.

I believe the support group will be good for me to talk about it and let out my emotions that I have withdrawn for the sake of my daughter b/c I don't want her to always see me crying.