Seperated but living together...

[Kiki1011]

So I just got home from a little 2 night get away. I didn't do anything special, just drove a couple hours away to hang out with friends. The night before the anniversary was awful. I cried for a the entire time I was on the road to go visit my friends. When I finally arrived I looked like death and didn't feel too much better. Something great happen though, within a half hour of being with my friends I was smiling. From that point I have yet to cry another tear. Yesterday (the anniversary) I did not shed a single tear. There were times when I had to try very hard to hold the tears back but I think my friends were great a recognizing these moments and would change the subject or make a joke to make me smile. So overall it was a decent day. I took it so much better than I expected.

I debated on driving home last night in the hopes that H would say something about the anniversary when I arrived him, but decided against it. I thought where would I rather be? With my friends happy or at home sad and disappointed? It felt great to worry about my own feelings for once instead of caring what he was thinking.

I don't know what today will bring but I am trying to learn to be thankful for what I have and learn to let go of all the bad for now.