Here I am....real life and all.

[Starshyne]

I did have a great weekend. Things are really going well with this new fellow. He is just SO nice and we really like each other. It is so strange to find myself having feelings for someone new. The only thing that is standing in my way is xh. He called me while I was on a date! How embarassing. I didn't answer the phone, but still.

I did finally talk to xh last night. I explained to him that I am dating someone and it makes for a very uncomfortable situation when he is calling me. I wouldn't mind talking to him now and then, but every single day needs to come to an end. I hope he understands that his calling all of the time is close to harassment. He told me last night that he will never get over me and that sometimes just out of no where it hits him how much he hurt me and he feels so guilty and bad about it. I told him that was good because maybe it will remind him to never do that to another person ever again. He said that he has a sexual addiction (something that I had said years ago in MC) and doesn't know if he will ever be able to stop cheating on women. Isn't that just sad and messed up???

I do like my xh. I just can't be talking to him all of the time. He has issues he has to work on alone. And I am trying to move ahead with my life. I am excited about the guy I have been dating. I haven't felt this way in so long. I can actually see things heading towards a relationship with him and I like the thought of that. We have only been dating for 3 weeks, but I already can see how he treats women so much better than my xh ever did. All around this man is SO much better than my xh (and my goodness this guy is a GREAT kisser!)

Sara